UnTiTLeD

Blogging was part of the important things in my daily life
But nowadays
I hardly blog
Due to incovenience
Due to whatever reasons
Hidden in me

Maybe I've been thinking too much
Or maybe it's just nothing
But when people sensed my negative feeling and mood
There must be a certain reason
Which I don't know what it is
It's very confusing
It's very contradicting

What do you see yourself in your career three years down from here?
I choose not to answer
Because I don't know how it will look like
And I'm not sure too
About things that happen next moment

Yes, you're right
No matter how uncertain the future is
We still need to plan
Even though the plan might not be carried out in the future
If I don't plan
I do not have a goal
To drive me to achieve it
I'll not have a future
Why do I being afraid to plan now?
I sense the fear deep inside me
Feeling insecure

Losing drive?
Losing confident?
What does success mean to me?
Am I an optimistic person?
Throwing so many questions to me
And how am I supposed to answer all in short?

Success?
I can't really find a definition to it now
To my mother
Success means I'm able to provide her a peaceful and happy life
To my job or career?
I don't know what've I achieved so far
Sense of achievement?
I'm wondering what's that all about

Am I chasing for anything now?
I don't even know what am I chasing for now

I still remember
During my LP second weekend
I still remember Scott's words
"If she's going to be the 2nd in self-sabotaging, nobody is going to be the first."
It seems so sarcastic now

Maybe
I need some reassurement
I need something to tell me
Am I contributing to them?
Focus on solutions
Focus on solutions, Yanni!!

I'm doing my very best towards it
As for now
I don't have confident to take over the position yet
Because I think
I'm still very far from what you expect me to be

And Yanni
What you expect youself to be is even higher
A voice from the inner Yanni

Thank You Mr.D

In life
We meet good and bad people
At first
I thought we only learn from the good ones
But now
I change my perception
I realise that
We learn from anyone that passes by our life

Learning from other's mistakes
To be a reminder of my own
I think
That is the best person for me to learn with
It might sound funny
But it isn't

We've to be grateful
Always be grateful
To whom we meet in life
To whom walk in and out our life

To Mr.D
Thank you very much
For letting me be more certain that
I'll stay in the line
And continue to educate with love and care

Now
I realise
I love myself even more
Hahaha

BuSy LiFe

I wonder when
When can I stop this busy life?
But anyway
I seem to be enjoying it very much
Except then the new face in office
Who gives me a lot of bullshit
Hahaha