TurNiNg 23 PoinT

Countdown 11 days
Before turning 23
What's my wish this year?
I haven't come to think of any

My 2006's goals
Weight lost
Financial
Career
Leisure
Family
Relationship

In fact
I've achieved my weight lost goal
Lost 3 kg without own realising
Still losing now
Hopefully another 3kg
Before year end

Career
I'm doing well so far
Happy with my work
Learning new things everyday
Lots of freedom and oppurtunities are given
Getting along well with the kids
Though sometimes
They will give me some headaches
Hehehe
But that's normal

Family
Things going on and off
Sometimes good sometimes very bad
I have adapted all these dramas
Dad has yet to solve his financial crisis

I've completed my dream
To Bali on May
With honey
Had a destress session for ourselves
Fun and interesting trip
With some funny events happened

Financially unstable yet
But still manage to cover mothly expenses
Been working very hard
I know things will become better soon
Mum said we'll be fine after 3 years time
I believe so
And hopefully
I can settle everything in 2 years time

Relationship
Hmmm
I'm still wondering
Will it be another history again?
Or will I be able to create a future?
Since when I've became such a coward?
To be laughed by myself loudly

How to celebrate
The happiness of living one more year?
I leave it to my friends
I'm the one who in charged of everything
All the time
It's a time for me to take a rest
And let go of control
And leave everything to them
I told Yeong
I just want to enjoy this year
;-)

PubLiC ToMoRRoW

Yeah
Public Holiday tomorrow
Unexpectedly
Gain one more day of rest

Planning on what to do
Wandering around bookshop?
Walking around Jusco?
Sleeping at home?
Cleaning my house?
Facing pc?

Can I have something different?
I'm asking myself some stupid questions again
Silly right?
I've been asking some silly questions lately

Tired
Though I slept for hours just now

MiGraIN

Due to the bad weather
My migrain started again just now
Even though I'm inside CS
It's knocking my head now

Since long time ago
It never visits me
Till today
A sudden rain and a sudden Sun

I wanna take a nap now
The survey plan has failed
Arghhhh
Must work out the next step
Never give up
Never give up
Go Go Yanni

Yeah
I'm going to sleep now
Kekekeke

Shannon BacK To KL

Shannon back to KL today
3 months after she staying in JB
She was worring about her mother
Till she insomia on the last 3 nights

Wishing her mother recover soon
And her hatyai trip later
Will be a happy one
;-)

PinK In MoDe

The best colour
To describe my mood now
It is PinK

I don't know why
But I just giggled to myself
On the bus
On the way home
Listening to mp3
I started to smile at myself

The life now is colourful
Because I
I wish to paint it pink
Sweet and lovely

The damn Alvin
Made me feel so embarassed today
I should teach him a lesson
In the coming future
Hehehe

ShaNnoN

Shannon has back
From her KK trip
From her mood
I can know that
She didn't enjoy the trip
Besides
Her mother was admitted to hospital
In a sudden

She has made the decision
To move back KL
And take care of her mother
So I can fully understand
How she feels
As both of us
Love our mother very much

Okay
She said that
I've became the biggest analyser
In her list
After Sharon Pang
But wait
I thought both of us
Are crying babies?

I know it
I will need to clear the shit
Or else she will pester me
Like bees looking for their honey

Okay
I should not have told her about it
But what to do
It has already been done
I'm doomed

Ok ok
I just don't feel like
Doing anything about it
At the moment

Whatever you wanna bitch about me
I'm fine with it
Lalalala
=P

HaNdWriTiNg TesT

I saw this test's link
From Ah Pee's blog
So I am interested to find out
How distinctive can this two
Same Birthday Leoness to be
And also
To find out it's accuracy
And that's what I got in the end:


For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude
toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space.I
f the inputted data was correct Yanni has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Yanni fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion.
If this is true,
then Yanni has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on.
The right side of the page represents the future and
Yanni is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future.
Yanni would like to leave the past behind and move on.

Yanni:I don't agree so...

Yanni is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success.
She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding,
something happens that keeps her from success.
Often, Yanni changes to a second project just before the first one is finished,
thus failing to complete the first project.
Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge.
Yanni feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures.
This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship.
She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last.
Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

Yanni: Maybe I really need it...Confused...

Something is incomplete in Yanni's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Yanni's sexual needs.

Yanni: Hahaha....

Yanni has a temper.
She uses this as a defense mechanism
when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation.
Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego.
Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

Yanni: Exactly !!!

Yanni is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth.
This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem.
She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts.
She finds joy in anticipation and planning.
Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do,
that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned.
Yanni basically feels good about herself.
She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success.
She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to.
However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach".
She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet,
she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals.
A good esteem is one key to a happy life.
Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery,
her self-perception is better than average.

Yanni: True...yet....

In reference to Yanni's mental abilities,
she has a very investigating and creating mind.
She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things.
She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning,
but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles.
She probably gets too many things going at once.
When Yanni slows down, then she becomes more creative than before.
Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it.
She then decides what projects she has time to finish.
Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind.
The other is the creative mind.
Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode.
She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster.
Yanni can then switch into her low gear.
When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative,
remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner.
She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Yanni: I believe I will have a never ending learning in my life.

Yanni will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion.
She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it,
whether they like it or not.
So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Yanni: Yes, and yes...Kekeke

Yanni will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity.
Yanni believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them.
She has a lot of pride.

Yanni: Absolutely CORRECT!!!

Yanni is moderately outgoing.
Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories.
In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others.
She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.
Yanni will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows.
Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad.
She has the unique ability to get along equally well
with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts.
This is because she is in between.
Psychology calls Yanni an ambivert.
She understands the needs of both types.
Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out."
She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
When convincing her to buy a product or an idea,
a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her.
She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story,
yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical.
Yanni is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions.
She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
Yanni is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically.
She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence,
and then will decide when she finally has to.
She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas
and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

Yanni: I think my friends will agree.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size
are moderate in their ability to interact socially.
According to the data input, Yanni doesn't write too large or too small,
indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

So I really don't know
What do you think about it?
Well never mind
Just for fun

AppReCiaTioN

Alvin looked so quiet today
He didn't even talk to me
When he stepped into TFP
I was too busy that time
To find out the reasons
Till he said he wanted to go back

Well
We found it rather strange of him
So then now
My intuition is correct
Something is wrong

I'm glad that he trusted me
And told me about it
At least
I feel
My effort has been repaid
At last
The trust that I built up
This is my first success step

They need love
Then I will do my best
To shower them with whatever I can

Well
That's so like my song
"Everything I do, I do it for you"
Yeah
That's the real me

HaLf DaY Off

Well
I purposely take my half day off
So that I can sleep more
And rest more
So I stayed late till 2am last night

This morning
I woke up by mum
At around 9am
Arghhh
I still want to sleep more
Can I?

Nay
I promised them that
Today we will go out shopping
So one hour later
We were in Plaza Pelangi

I went to Somerset Bay
Tried on more than 10pcs dresses and skirts
None of it is in my favor
What happen to me?
It's so not like me

Mum passed me a RM100
I can buy whatever that I like
As my birthday present next month
I'm so delighted
How am I going to use the money?
I've been planning

Then I went to East India
Saw some nice skirts
And tried it on
Well
I still can't bear to buy it down
It's so so not like me

At last
I don't feel happy at all
It's not about
I couldn't get anything

But more to
I want to go and work
Omg
Shannon must be scolding me
"Can you just forget about TFP on your off day?!!"

Hmmm
Honest speaking
I felt very happy
The first moment
I stepped into office
All I heard is
'WOW!! Do you have a date tonight?"

Yeah
I'm alived
Working makes me stay alive

TiMe fLieS

Time flies
How come the older I am
The faster I feel the time passes me
Omg
I don't dare to think

My 2006 DOE
I've another 5 months plus to complete
August is coming
Once a year I make a wish
Can I have 5 wishes this year?

I'm greedy
Mum promised to buy me
The East India dress
That I saw just now
Hahaha
I'm overjoyed
Long time never buy clothes
For myself already

I'm so damn poor
Mega sales is coming
But so what
I want earn more
Then clear all my debts ASAP

My biggest wish this year
;-)

On DieT

It has been quite some time
Since my last diet
Well
I lost 3kg in the past half year
Without me realising it
Till I weighed myself last week
I'm still quite blur
Till I came to think of my last weight

Well
Why do I start?
Hahaha
Woman never feel satisfy
To make themselves become prettier
I'm just greedy

Objective this time
Not really to lose weight
But then to shape up my bodyline
Lose my waist
Get rid of my tummy
And my stupid flabby arm
Which I hate it so much

As you know
It's so ugly
As I like to wear sleeveless
Hahaha

Today is the 4th day
As I expected I think
Not really see the drops in weight

Never mind
One more week to go
Rechyl
Shall we see the results then?
Hahahaha

Gambate

SeLf SaBoTaGiNg

If not because of
The talk with him today
I think
I'll sabotage myself to hell

Sometimes
I'm really confusing myself
Till he told me that
I always have contradictions in my arguments

Then I turned to Yeong
I told her about some of my thoughts
Then she gave me a similar feedback

You must always remember where do they from
Then where are they now
You can always set goals for yourself and them
But remember too
Without you
They will not be able to be where they are now
Even if you're half way through
Remind yourself that
It's halfway through already
Work hard for the other half
Not just sighing about
It's ONLY one half

Yeah
Exactly
Yeong spoke out everything about me
And it's just like waking me up
From a long time sleeping

Finally
I start to realise that
I've been sabotaging myself again
Never appreciating my effort
And my hard work to them

Always setting new expectations and goals
For myself one after one
It's my own way of picking up new things
My way of learning
Because I think
There's so many things for me to learn
But I've just too litttle time
Okies
I know I'm greedy

What so ever
I knew what have I achieved so far
Being more effective for me now
Is to appreciate their hard work too

Okies I knew it
Someone scolding me again
Stupid girl
And feel like whacking me too
Hahahaha

WeiRd Me

I picked up the unknown call
I was wondering who was it
Till I heard the voice
Familiar yet suprising

I've no idea why
Suddenly
I've became so high
And happy
While talking to you

Maybe most of the time
Our conversation is too stressing
This is the first time
I felt relax talking with you
Over the phone
With more jokes and laughters

Okies
I know I'm weird at times
I just can't understand
And come out with a reason now

Maybe
Give me some time
;-)

OffiNg

Yeah
Finally
I can have my one day off
To rest
After one month of non-resting

Sound like my boss ill treated me?
Hahahaha
Absolutely not
I'm the one
Who always sabotage myself
I'm the one
Who always ill treat myself
Like nobody's do

So today
I'm going to have a good rest
Think nothing about work
Can I?
I doubt it
=P
I'm such a workholic

Boss will be happy
To get such a committed staff like me
Hahahaha
I'm so thick face
Yuckssssss

A very good day
Laughters are all around
=)

To My DeaR

I can understand your struggling
But silly girl
My dear
I learnt
What LOVE is all about
From you

Who said love is selfish?
But you're not
I said love can be noble
And
Yes, you're.

Do not need to worry
You'll have my support always
But you must promise
Not to walk away alone
Not even once or again

I'll not hate you
But I'll make sure
My naggings drive you crazy
Hahahaha

I love you
Thanks for telling me

TiRiNg WeeK

I can't remember
When was my last off day
But I'm just feeling tired today
Till today

My boss should be glad that
I can hang on till now
So
I'm really kind of superwoman

I heard some eggs breaking sound
I heard some noisy background voice
Laughing at me
Well
It doesn't matter

I need some time
To be alone
To do my own things
And finish off the workshop thingy

I need some time
To clear my mind
To set some goals for myself

I need some silent time
To be with myself
To love myself more

I know
I've been torturing myself
On and on
It's so unhealthy

I knew it
Someone is scolding at my back now
ACT TOUGH
Stupid girl