PLaNniNg On 2006

What is there for me in 2006?
What's so big about 2006?
That's what I keep asking myself lately

Expand my tuition class
I want to create study group
And design methods for the needs of student
Teaching according to student's needs
Rather of following the school progress blindly
Which does not benefit the student at all

Secondly
Moving on Arete
I launched the website already as I promised
But in the coming days
I'll update and do some modifications
There'll be more detailed planning on Arete
Especially on capital

About Relationship
I'm looking for a soul mate
Don't laugh
I know it's hard hard and hard

What else?
Oh ya
Hong Kong Disneyland trip with my mum in 2006
Ya
That's my reward to my hardwork in the end of 2006

Some more?
I'm still thinking

LooKiNg BacK 2005

Looking back on 2005
What have I accomplished?
My answer will be 'a lotssss'

For instance
I completed my Advanced & LP
And then
I graduated
And then
I took the first step to build my own career
I chose to be a tutor

In six months time
I've more than 20 students
on my own

Looking back again
What's my biggest deal in 2005?

I should say
It's about how I see myself, people and things around
I've a brand new way of translating my life
How I lead my life
And how I enrolled my mum
To accept how I live

There've been ups and downs
Every single day every moment
I think that is why
Life is beautiful

So
What's so big about 2006?

HeLp In The HeLL

If you're Johorean
And stay near Johor Jaya area
I'm sure you'll see things that I see

Just around the traffic light
To turn into Johor Jaya The Store
You'll see some beggars around
To knock on your car's window
And ask for money

I don't know why
But I hardly give them
Sometimes when I have mood
Maybe I do
But then
Does it gonna help them?
I always think

There're too many needers in M'sia
But how are we going to help them one by one?
And furthermore
There're so many centres in M'sia too
Where are them for these people?

They're a complete human
With hands and legs
They have the ability to work
But why are there still so many of them out there?

I'm wondering
If our government see these things?
Are them doing anything about it?
Why is there no any society or organizations for them?

Everytime
When I passed by the street
I'll asked my mum
When can I not seeing these people around anymore?
We just kept in silence
Because we don't know when

I told myself inside
One day
There'll be a place for them
And I wouldn't feel my heartache anymore

"When we are all in the hell, who's going to help?"

But
I always believe in myself

It's the HearT That Matters MosT

Accidently heard this song in Yahoo Music
By Charlotte Church
One of my favourite singer
The first time I heard it
I can only feel touch

For all that I know or you know
It's the heart that matters most
To me
What about you?
Do you feel the same as me?

I knew
It's my heart whoever will know
Fully understand me
About what and how do I feel right now

It's ok
To turn in the different way of what's in your heart
When you know
You wouldn't get to where you want to
If you follow
It'll only hurt

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Time to spread some hope
Make the spirits rise
Do you see the wonder in their eyes
Time to speak of love
Hold each other close
Cause it's the heart that matters most

Its still the same old moon
Why does it shine so bright
There's a little magic in the air tonight
Time to speak of love
Hold each other close
Cause it's the heart that matters most

Always the heart that matters most

Oh, take a look around you can see that it's true
It's like a river flowing inside of you
Everyone needs love, you need it too
So here's what you have got to do

Spread a little hope
Make the spirits rise
Do you see the wonder in their eyes
Time to speak of love
Hold each other close
Cause it's the heart that matters most

In time we come to learn
It's the heart that matters most

It's X'MaS

HoHoHo0O
Santa claus is coming to town

Yeah
Just feel very great
To feel X'mas again

I fell in love to this season
A romance and sweet season
A happy and happening season

You see
I blew a wish
Hoping the wish will reach my side

Merry Christmas
To all my love ones and my beloved

MaKiNg MySeLF AvaiLaBLe

Everytime
They'll be people asking me
"When are you coming to KL??"
My answer is always "I don't know"

My timetable in December is full
Since long time ago
My trip to KL
Most probably is in 2006
That's where my answer lies too

Nah
Ser Yee
I'll go in Feb
It's Chinese New Year
To visit you guys there
More than 6 months
I left KL since our LP

Well
I'll remember your promise
To keep me company
Hah!!

I miss you guys there
Wishing all have a little Merry X'mas & Happy New Year

A LeTteR To DeaR PaReNTs

Dear Parents
I'm just a normal tuition teacher
Your child is so bright and smart
Without me
They're living good and well

Dear Parents
I'm not really earning your money
But in fact I am
I've more than 20 students to take care

Dear Parents
Don't call Miss so nicely
I know I'm a Miss
I'm just forgotten to mark
I'm just careless
I admit

Please don't talk so nicely to me
Thank you
And you're welcome

Omg
Stressing me like hell
Sigh

ConFuSe

I'm not sure
If it's right or wrong
And I don't even want to be sure
If there're right or wrong

Don't ask me how to define RESPONSIBILITY
Because even me myself confuse too
Is the decision of her dad a decision?
I also don't know
I think he also doesn't know

I just know I'm feeling angry
Feeling helpless and sad
I'm unable to save a life
That's it!

I'm not going to ask anymore
To care about anything anymore
I'm tired
Enough of trouble enough of headache
Let me rest
And don't disturb me at all
I'm not in a good mood

DeCiSioN To KiLL

They have made the decision
They have decided to kill
Because of fear of the unknown of future

Human is so irresponsible
When something happened
Because of your own fault
You run away with your excuses

Human is so selfish
When things come
They don't look at their responsibility
They look at reality

Human is so weak
We just bend down to reality
So that it doesn't kill us
But kill him or her

What's so good about human?
I start to hate myself more
Who am I?
A person who assist in killing
The killer assistant

Human kills invicibly
Human?
Am I?

It's KiLLiNg Me Softly

I just hate the moment
When I'm helpless
I just hate the time
When I've to handle
So many things at once
I just hate
Why is it always me?

These days
I'm not sleeping well
I'm stressed
Under a lot of pressure
That I gave myself
And formed invicibly

These days too
So much rains in my world
It's wet It's grey It's cold
It's undescrible

Oh tears oh tears
Can you please stop raining?
It's killing me softly
To feel the helpless inside me
To feel that I need someone behind me
To feel that I'm so weak inside me
To feel that I can't run away
To feel that you still hurting me so much

Enough!!!
It's killing me softly softly softly

Is there anyone who wants to bring me away from here?

When have I become such a coward?

FuRiouS

How come I have such a damn brother?
Damn it
Children nowadays don't know
How fortunate they are

Since you dislike so much to stay with us
Then I can just send you away
So you don't see us
We don't see you
What a nice way right?

Serve you right!!
Don't go beyond me
I'm gonna crazy
Stupid idiots !!

You bangkang lagi lah
I'll show you my true power

MoVing On Arete

I've got my last week schedule done
Company logo
Name card
Website banner
Product photos
All done in time
In excellence

Thank you very much to Lisa
For your creative hard work
Thank you too for changing and changing
Thank you Alice my dear
For your hard work too
Though in the end I didn't use yours

To everyone that helped me last week
I'm so appreciate and blessed
To have everything goes so smooth

X' Mas

Here we are in December again
The last month of the year
And also
My favourite X'mas is coming

Planning on a X'mas party
Planning to have a gathering with my friends
Planning to stay at home with my family
Planning on what food to prepare
Planning on X'mas presents

Last but not least
Planning the coming 2006

Who is coming to my party?