TemPeR

I guess it's really about my attitude
I find it strange and awesome
When I received your sms
About wanna back out for our business
I don't angry AT ALL

I must say about it
Cos' following my normal temper
I'll burst out
To my suprise
I just didn't

However
I felt peace
It's really about letting go I think
When you let go
There's nothing which can stop you from moving on

I'm still moving on
My power is just turning on
I can go with 160km/j now
Don't saman me please
Haha!!

DesTiNy

When you talk about DesTiNy
Do you believe it?
Sometimes human is weird
And I start to don't understand and blur

Now let me tell you something about DesTiNy
It's either created by you
Or destroyed by you with your own hands

And so
this is what I believe about MY DESTINY

So
Don't tell me something about if
If we have destiny to meet
We've already met
If we have destiny to meet again
I can't find a good reason for that
And also
I don't see any point to meet again too

Destiny?
No!
It's my choice

And you
Continuing your destiny yourself

I'm Fre3

To my suprise
Someone who has been missing for the past two months
Came and spoke to me
Finally

How are you?
Have you got a bf yet?

What the hell are you trying to say?
Don't you think you've gone too far?
What do you take me for?
Do you love me?
I answered

I think my most stupid question is do you love me
Because I knew the answer for long
I'm just asking in anger

What do you want?
I guessed you're possibly asking youself
I don't want anything
And please
Please stop all those things that hurting each other or me anymore

I'm sorry if I hurt you
Well I no need your sorry
I don't even want to hear sorry from you
Because that hurts
And you won't know too

I'm free
Totally free from anything especially you

ReSuLTs

I remembered how I told myself
The result that shown doesn't really is a result
Why do people pursuing their studies for?

I realised the trend of primary children and their parents
They focused so much on the results
As their tutor
I was stressed too at times
And
I almost forgot that we do not study for only results

How could I make such a mistake?
I'm angry at myself again
When my students don't understand something
Am I not a good teacher?

Nope
They'll understand it one day
I'm too focused on their results lately
Result doesn't mean anything
But it means something else to me too

Not about results anymore
It's about understanding

I'm ForTuNaTe

I read an article yesterday
I read another article today
It's a series of reporting
About the poverty in State of An Wei in China

It talked about people there
Elders and children there
What kind of life that they are living?
Do the children go to school?

A grandmo of 80 plus years
Still going to the farm
Just to earn a little more
for her grandson to continue study
She worries what will happen
If on day she is gone
She knows exactly when the day will come

A little baby that was thrown away by her parent
Was adopted by an old man
She is 11 years old now
A bright girl that made herself into the top class in school
She needed a dictionary and revision to follow up
But she knew that her father got no money for that
After her father knew about it
The early morning on second day
He walked to another city that is wealthier
He believed that he will sure be able to get some money
If he go from one house to another to beg for them

Unfortunately
On his way home
He was knocked down by car
In pain
He still struggled to go back to her daughter
As he knew that she was waiting for him for the money

People there struggling for thier life
They don't even have a propoer place that called SCHOOL
Their tables are without drawers
They bring their own chairs to class

Children in Malaysia
How fortunate you are
That you don't even know what's happening out there

My eyes are with tears after reading these articles
I realised no matter how hard my life now is
I'm still fortunate
I'm blessed

But
Who is going to bless them?
The children who wanted so much to go to school
If you have RM 720
Are you willing to help them?

I wish I can do more than this
Remember
You're blessed

MinD SurFiNg

Living is a process of learning
Learning is a process in living
We learn from our everyday
Everyday I learn more about myself

I'm a thinker
I can put myself into silence for a day
Just doing mind surfing
Until I'm satisfied

My mum was wondering what am I doing in front of Pc
In fact
My eye on the screen
My brain is in the green

Lately
I've all sort of ideas in my brain
Letting it out
And discuss with my friends

Ehehe
We're getting hop with something
Shhhhh
It's P & C

Difference

Jhin Chuen is my student
Who is only Primary One
He is a very active and cute boy

It is primary school exam week
I asked all of my students to set their target
For what marks they want to get for each paper
And show to their parent after that
It's a very new experience to them
They seem to get very excited about it too

Back to Jhin Chuen
Last night during class
I asked if he can get 70 and above for his Chinese
He replied me No
I was a bit worried then
But guess what he continued to tell me?
"I want to get 90 and above!"

I was laughing with my mum
What a bright boy
=)