LasT DaY 2006

Time flies
It's 31 Dec 2006
Oh my god

Well
It's still good
To hear feedback from someone
About my life

But
It's quite sad
Cos he said I'm living unhappily
Although I rated 6 for myself
He rated 3 only

I really need to let go
Let go of my image
Let go of my pride
Let go of my family
Let go of unnecessary responsibilities
Let go of myself
Then only
I will be able to live more happily
To live more contentfully
To live healthily
To live positively
To live my life myself

Thank you for your sensitivity
Thank you for your concern
I really appreciate it very much

But maybe
I just need some time
To make my life better

Happy 2007
Welcome 2007
Wishing my year to be better
And continue to be challenging
Wishing myself seeing things positively
Not wish
But I must do it face it and handle it

And I've another little wish
I hope he'll find out soon
I'm waiting

MerrY X'MaS

We wish you a Merry X'mas
We wish you a Merry X'mas
We wish you a Merry X'mas
And a Happy New Year

Silent night Holy night
Lalala Lalala
I don't know already
Hahaha

Yeah
X'mas is coming
This Saturday
Club is going to have a party
After the party
Then I'll go Nana's place
To continue the second round
I think many of them are coming back
So excited

Troubling with what presents to buy
But I've something in my mind
For someone already
Hehehe
Something which I want to do it long ago

Erm
Don't know how ler
But I'll give it a try
No harm to try
Hopefully no mistake
If not
If not..If not....
I also don't kow how

Wishing all my friends
A very Merry Christmas
And a wonderful year ahead
With more bonus
More increment

Omg...
Where is mine?

diNn3R DaTe

Yeah
I accepted the dinner date
Cos I don't know how to reject anymore

Maybe because of
Being fed up with another thing
I don't know
Maybe because of too busy
Or he's just saying
To make me happy
To cheer me temporarily
But in fact
There's hope
There shall be disappointment

I don't want to give him hope
But Jia said
If he's good
Then can give a chance to each other

I don't know if I should
Tired

MenTaLLy 3neRgyLeSs

I broke another record
To sleep around 4am last night
After the Karaoke @ RedBox

Seriously
I don't feel like wake up this morning
Can I sleep more?
I asked myself
But I know I will not sleep anymore
Commitment is my big boss
I always listen to him

Feeling mentally tired
Don't feel like doing anything
But rest
I've no appetite today
Maybe because of
The inner body clock has some problem

Feeling sleepy now
I wannt sleep already
Good night everyone

I'm not really in the mood now

CanT LeT Go of Mys3Lf

Why do I need to give you a treat?
As if I owe you anything?
Well
I just don't like it at all
Of your appearance

It spoilt my mood definitely
The feeling is so hard to let it out
So I sabotage myelf again
Why is it so?

I couldn't let go my feeling
The feeling of I dislike him so much
That I don't even want to see him
I even think of
If one day
We'll have no relationship at all

Be Forgiving
Why can't I just forgive and forsake?
I keep on asking myself the reason
But I insist that
That will be the best way for him to grow
For him to realise his mistakes
For him to make a change

How silly I am
How stupid I am
That I do
I do feel very bad about it

Will I have split characteristic?
Do I need counselling?
I even come to think of getting counselling
That might help me
Maybe
Or just I've thought too much

Be forgiving, Yanni
I hope I can really do that
So
Don't make me give up on you
Don't make me hate you

I don't wish too
I mean it
I don't wish too

Mo0Dy

I was being quite moody
Maybe
Due to brother's matter last night
My fire hasn't simmer down

Busy busy busy
I have started to wonder
What kind of life
Am I leading now?

I have gone back to the life
During MMU's time
Shopping alone
Dinner alone
Want to do everything alone

Honestly
I am quite pissed off
With the boy's attitude
But never mind already
Boss said nothing too
So why shall I be angry about it?

I told mum
The next life
I want to be the youngest
To be loved by everyone
I want to be a taker
Taker taker taker

Well
To find someone who you love
Is harder than
To find someone who loves you

So
It's still hard
Maybe
Maybe just because
I'm too tough