Realisation

Look at my face

Look at the bouquet

It's from my dear

For my birthday

Hahaha

Blush blush

WiShing For a Better YeaR

Time flies
We've been together for 8 months
246 days equals to 5904 hours

Dear
I just pray hard that
We'll have many happy days in future
No matter good or bad
Poor or rich
Good or sick
I'll stay by your side
To support you
In achieving your goals

I'm so proud of you that
You've seen where your path is
It'll lead you to a better tomorrow

Believe in yourself
Believe that we will be able to make it happen
I love you

Happy ChiNeSe New YeaR

I admit I'm busy lately
So practically
I sneak in here
To wish everyone

Happy Chinese New Year
Prosperous in Health & Wealth
Receive many many Ang paos

Wishing all my undertakings this year
Will be fine and well done
Hurray

WelCoMe 2008

Welcome 2008
Though I've fallen sick
But everything will be fine
That's all I wish
Well
Life is still busy
And getting busier

Happy 2008

NeW ReLaTioNsHip

Yes
I'm in a new relationship
It's rather fast
But this time round
It's not furious

We've been hurt
So
We'll learn
How to each other better
And more

We're afraid
We feel fear
But once decided
We're going to conquer it together

GoodBye 2007

Time flies again
Waiving to 2007
Saying Hi to 2008

Letting go the past
Walking towards the future
This is what I should do
Always

ToGeTheR aGaiN

After some struggling
We met
We talked
And finally
We realised how silly we were

We hugged
And deep in my heart
I wish we'd never be apart again

I need blessing
Though I know
This time round
I'm taking bigger risk
And my mum will make noise
My sisters will worry about me

But
I need blessings

An 3viDenCe

Well
Just want to share an evidence
Of my success keeping fit
I was not able to put on this gown previously
But now
I'm just fitted it well
Despite my pale looked face
Focus on the beauty of the gown
One of my favourite gown
In my home boutique & studio

HoW

I don't know how
Why do you want to sms me
If you didn't
I'd be more determined

Now
How are we supposed to continue
Yes
You're right
You want me
But we're difficult

I miss you
I know I miss you very much
But shall we meet
Shall I meet you
And what's next

Fair
How can things be fair
I don't know how
And you'll surely say you don't know too

Should I just send a news to tell you
I'm dead

You took my heart away
And yet
You left me now
With nothing left

How am I suppose to carry on

I'm sorry
But I've to say
Honey
You're really selfish
You make my life miserable
I lost my smile
I lost my confidence
I lost my pride

I'm not sure
When I can stand up again
As confident as I can be

Finish The UnFiNisH

Last night
We met
And we
Finished the unfinish
I owe him seven years ago

Is it a beginning or ending
I'm not sure too

I thought I would cry
But where has my tears gone

I lost my tears

SeeKing DruNk

I was down
Nobody will understand my feeling now
Except myself
So
I was buying drunk for a few days
But I was as conscious as I could be


I am still seeking drunk
I wonder how would it feel like
I want to have a try

My best friends know it
But they trust me
They give me the space
They allow me to do what I want now
Do you?

I know I can't say anything
I know I'm not in the position to say anything
They're your family
Who am I to you to have your trust?
I was heart-broken
But so what
It doesn't concern you anymore

No matter how I drink
I'm still conscious
More conscious than when I'm sober
No matter how crazy I go
I'm still conscious
I consciously know that
Everything is OVER

Luck?
I don't need luck
Love?
I received a lot of love
Happiness?
When I am drunk

LasT DaY

Yesterday
Was my last day in the company
There's a bit of contradicting feeling
It's kinda hard to describe it
When Jia asked me today

At least
I see the result
I've created before I leave
And I've to say
Yanni
You really did well this time
You made it the last
You made it the best

Yes
It's quite sad to leave the babies
But I know
I'm going to be better than this
In the near future

Be daring
To step ahead

OcT 2007 NeW LooK

Can't wait to share my new look with you
Even with my pale look face
With dark eye bags
Now...
Let me introduce the
Miss Panda 2007

Miss Yanni Lim

NeW LiFe UnL3aShiNg SooN

There's some changes
It might look tense now
But don't worry
I'm going to be alright

I think
It's time for me to take a rest
Yes
Unbelievable
But I'm going to take a break

To think about where should I go next
To think and plan my future

Go for it, Yanni!
You can do it !!
New life unleashing soon
Coming in November

BuSy

We're always busy
Busy busy and busy only
I've started to worry
How How How
How to answer your question
How to make sure we're balance in everything

It's all just because
I care too much about us
I'm afraid of losing you
I'm worried
I'd fail again

SweeT SeaSoN

It's not easy to find someone I like
It's even more difficult to find someone
Who likes each other
So I should not sabotage myself anymore

It's sweet
It's warm
It's peaceful
I like the feeling now

StRuGgLiNg FoR New LiFe

I'm sorry
But I couldn't help to say so
I couldn't help to feel guilty
And I know it very well
The longer I'm staying
The more guilty I will feel
And the more I sink in it
I think it's time I pull myself out

Jia asked me not to bother so much
But I can't just go without proper trasition
That's not my style

I'm really struggling
For a better life
For things that I want to do in life
For my goals and dreams
With your words today
I really feel bad
But I don't know how to say it out

I've to overcome my guilt
I must do it
No matter what you say or do

On FeVeR

I'm very hot today
I was thinking how to simmer down
And surprisingly
I did it

It's a miracle
I think
It's time for me

I've to do something about it

Qu3eN Of De YaNni

It's a kids party
Kekeke
The Queen's birthday is decorated with ballons
The Queen is given a crown
The Queen was feeling delighted when she saw the place

Thank you to all dears
I really had a memorable and fun night
Though it was full with dramas
But
It is my most meaningful birthday
Till I'm 24
It is dreamy
It is classy
It is the best in my life now

NeW SpeC Lo0k

My new look
With my new spec
Yes
Purplegirl now
Hahaha

With very dark eyebags
OMG

TuRniNg 24

Soon to be 24
But so far
I don't know what have I achieved
I don't have a direction in life
I still don't know what do I want
Sometimes
I don't even know
What am I to the earth?

This year
I've set so many goals
But none of it seems to be completed
Unrealistic Yanni
You've been unrealistic for quite some time already
It's time to wake up

This year
I'm left with another 4 months
What am I supposed to do?

Just do your best Yanni
But I feel
I'm under performance now
Am I setting to high expectation to myself?
Can someone tell me
Where am I heading to

Turning 24
But yet
I'm nothing

UnTiTLeD

Blogging was part of the important things in my daily life
But nowadays
I hardly blog
Due to incovenience
Due to whatever reasons
Hidden in me

Maybe I've been thinking too much
Or maybe it's just nothing
But when people sensed my negative feeling and mood
There must be a certain reason
Which I don't know what it is
It's very confusing
It's very contradicting

What do you see yourself in your career three years down from here?
I choose not to answer
Because I don't know how it will look like
And I'm not sure too
About things that happen next moment

Yes, you're right
No matter how uncertain the future is
We still need to plan
Even though the plan might not be carried out in the future
If I don't plan
I do not have a goal
To drive me to achieve it
I'll not have a future
Why do I being afraid to plan now?
I sense the fear deep inside me
Feeling insecure

Losing drive?
Losing confident?
What does success mean to me?
Am I an optimistic person?
Throwing so many questions to me
And how am I supposed to answer all in short?

Success?
I can't really find a definition to it now
To my mother
Success means I'm able to provide her a peaceful and happy life
To my job or career?
I don't know what've I achieved so far
Sense of achievement?
I'm wondering what's that all about

Am I chasing for anything now?
I don't even know what am I chasing for now

I still remember
During my LP second weekend
I still remember Scott's words
"If she's going to be the 2nd in self-sabotaging, nobody is going to be the first."
It seems so sarcastic now

Maybe
I need some reassurement
I need something to tell me
Am I contributing to them?
Focus on solutions
Focus on solutions, Yanni!!

I'm doing my very best towards it
As for now
I don't have confident to take over the position yet
Because I think
I'm still very far from what you expect me to be

And Yanni
What you expect youself to be is even higher
A voice from the inner Yanni

Thank You Mr.D

In life
We meet good and bad people
At first
I thought we only learn from the good ones
But now
I change my perception
I realise that
We learn from anyone that passes by our life

Learning from other's mistakes
To be a reminder of my own
I think
That is the best person for me to learn with
It might sound funny
But it isn't

We've to be grateful
Always be grateful
To whom we meet in life
To whom walk in and out our life

To Mr.D
Thank you very much
For letting me be more certain that
I'll stay in the line
And continue to educate with love and care

Now
I realise
I love myself even more
Hahaha

BuSy LiFe

I wonder when
When can I stop this busy life?
But anyway
I seem to be enjoying it very much
Except then the new face in office
Who gives me a lot of bullshit
Hahaha

PriDeLeSs

What is pride?
What's the pride for?
What's my pride all about?
I don't know
And I don't understand
How much can the pride cost?

I feel sad
Even depress
Although I'd a talk with Jia
I still feel very bad
Tearing
I'm not sure if she saw it
But
I really feel tough
To stop it from dropping down

I've very high expectation
That's why I'm hurt
So badly now
Contradict
My interest towards it
Does not tally with what I want and get

I'm being Killed off
Don't know what do I want to do
Don't know where I want to go

When the commitment gets stronger
The more resentful I feel
I hate the me now

No confident No asset
No nothing

SicK

Sick Declaration
Aiksss
Can't fight with the virus
I'm still failed

It was a long time ago
Since my last MC
But then
I didn't take any MC yet

Flu flu
Please go away
I want to club tomorrow

In CraZy MoDe

I'm in crazy mode
My mind is full with crazy things
It makes no peace to me

Sometimes I think
I'm sick

RuNniNg WiLd

What happen?
I should not let my thoughts run wild
I should not live without work
So boring
Extremely boring
A workoholic like me
It's hopeless

I wish
I can lie on the beach now
Looking at the stars
So wonderful

Wake up wake up wake up

I should not let my thoughts runs wild

Spe3ChLeSs

What shall I say?
How to say it?
I'm not sure
I'm really not sure
Being honest is not an easy job too

I'm in dilemma

In & OuT of ConTroL

Boss and manager will be away for 10days
Practically
It's going to be challenging period
For me
Yes
Me

How to be in control
How to be out of control
But in fact
I'm in control of everything
It's so profound
I wish everything will just be fine

Basically
I know my EQ is lousy
I'm suppose to learn
And I must learn it
If not
How am I suppose to improve myself

Bless me please
I know
It's a challenge to me
I must be confident
That nothing is gonna make me fall

Hey Yanni
You can do it
Go Go Go
Gambate neh

Fr3aKiNg TiReD

I'm tired
Freaking tired
Wake up 6 something to 7 every morning
But I'm workin at 10a.m.

No choice
I'm carless now
And I
I miss my car DAMN much

The mechanic
Can you please return my car to me
As you promise on Saturday

Pray harder
I can't stand any longer
Going to collapse sooner or later

*Faint*

CycLe 2

I wonder why
But the thing happened
Just as I expected
I don't know how
But as an outsider
I've a clearer view
Than anyone of you

So what about career
So what about future
So what about saving money
It'll be a never-ending story
From today onwards
Until 10 years 20 years
Or 30 years later

Please
I've had enough of all your bullshits
And all sorts of excuses
That's not going to work

Not only you have the burden
Not only you need to pick up the responsibility
Not only you who're suffering
Not only you have your own priority
Everyone has their own too

I despise people like this
Only know how to talk
Without any action
So what if you know that
I'm referring you
I'm serious here
I don't like you to torture my friend that way

Selfish fellow
If you know you're selfish
Please do something about it
To balance yourself
Not just putting it on your mouth
"I know"

Of cause "I know"
I know you're just trying to avoid again
Psssssh

And you GIRL
Don't need to be too rational
To even think of throwing your temper
To even think of the pros and cons
When you're angry or upset
Who is the one saying that you're irrational?
Ask him to come out
And jump from the 20th floor

I will ignore you
If the same thing happen
It's either you solve it
Or you continue to live it the way

It's all
Still up to you
I don't want to bother already

MoViNg @gaiN

I've started my journey again
This time round
I'm not sure
Where'll I be going

Maybe god
Want me to lead my life this way
So
I've to find out why god do this to me
Or perharps
I've been looking forward to this kind of life

It's weird
But if anyone is going to ask me
"Where do you stay?"
Eventually
I'll answer steadily
I stay anywhere everywhere
Where I can live by

Sounds cool?
I believe you will not like it
The feeling without a HOME

Well
Since it's already that way
So
I'm prepared to continue my journey happily

GoiNg To Be

Lately
My friend is having some relationship problems
Erm
I knew it since long ago
The problem still exists
But avoiding doesn't solve the issue
So now
The problem appears again

Well
To stop the cycle
You've got to face the problem up together
Face it handle it solve it
Whoever that continues to give excuses
He's the one who sour the whole relationship

If there's no honesty
If there's no sincerity
Nothing could be solved

Is it going to be your 5 years?
It's all up to you
Not anyone else
Since you're brave enough to be in it
Since you're brave enough to avoid it
Why don't you just be a little braver
To face the LOVE together

Is it going to be?
No matter how
I will still be here
Stand by you