Saturday, August 16, 2008
WiShing For a Better YeaR
Time flies
We've been together for 8 months
246 days equals to 5904 hours
Dear
I just pray hard that
We'll have many happy days in future
No matter good or bad
Poor or rich
Good or sick
I'll stay by your side
To support you
In achieving your goals
I'm so proud of you that
You've seen where your path is
It'll lead you to a better tomorrow
Believe in yourself
Believe that we will be able to make it happen
I love you
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Happy ChiNeSe New YeaR
I admit I'm busy lately
So practically
I sneak in here
To wish everyone
Happy Chinese New Year
Prosperous in Health & Wealth
Receive many many Ang paos
Wishing all my undertakings this year
Will be fine and well done
Hurray
Saturday, January 05, 2008
WelCoMe 2008
Welcome 2008
Though I've fallen sick
But everything will be fine
That's all I wish
Well
Life is still busy
And getting busier
Happy 2008
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
NeW ReLaTioNsHip
Yes
I'm in a new relationship
It's rather fast
But this time round
It's not furious
We've been hurt
So
We'll learn
How to each other better
And more
We're afraid
We feel fear
But once decided
We're going to conquer it together
GoodBye 2007
Time flies again
Waiving to 2007
Saying Hi to 2008
Letting go the past
Walking towards the future
This is what I should do
Always
Friday, November 30, 2007
ToGeTheR aGaiN
After some struggling
We met
We talked
And finally
We realised how silly we were
We hugged
And deep in my heart
I wish we'd never be apart again
I need blessing
Though I know
This time round
I'm taking bigger risk
And my mum will make noise
My sisters will worry about me
But
I need blessings
Monday, November 26, 2007
HoW
I don't know how
Why do you want to sms me
If you didn't
I'd be more determined
Now
How are we supposed to continue
Yes
You're right
You want me
But we're difficult
I miss you
I know I miss you very much
But shall we meet
Shall I meet you
And what's next
Fair
How can things be fair
I don't know how
And you'll surely say you don't know too
Should I just send a news to tell you
I'm dead
You took my heart away
And yet
You left me now
With nothing left
How am I suppose to carry on
I'm sorry
But I've to say
Honey
You're really selfish
You make my life miserable
I lost my smile
I lost my confidence
I lost my pride
I'm not sure
When I can stand up again
As confident as I can be
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Finish The UnFiNisH
Last night
We met
And we
Finished the unfinish
I owe him seven years ago
Is it a beginning or ending
I'm not sure too
I thought I would cry
But where has my tears gone
I lost my tears
Sunday, November 18, 2007
SeeKing DruNk
I was down
Nobody will understand my feeling now
Except myself
So
I was buying drunk for a few days
But I was as conscious as I could be
I am still seeking drunk
I wonder how would it feel like
I want to have a try
My best friends know it
But they trust me
They give me the space
They allow me to do what I want now
Do you?
I know I can't say anything
I know I'm not in the position to say anything
They're your family
Who am I to you to have your trust?
I was heart-broken
But so what
It doesn't concern you anymore
No matter how I drink
I'm still conscious
More conscious than when I'm sober
No matter how crazy I go
I'm still conscious
I consciously know that
Everything is OVER
Luck?
I don't need luck
Love?
I received a lot of love
Happiness?
When I am drunk
Sunday, October 28, 2007
LasT DaY
Yesterday
Was my last day in the company
There's a bit of contradicting feeling
It's kinda hard to describe it
When Jia asked me today
At least
I see the result
I've created before I leave
And I've to say
Yanni
You really did well this time
You made it the last
You made it the best
Yes
It's quite sad to leave the babies
But I know
I'm going to be better than this
In the near future
Be daring
To step ahead
Monday, October 22, 2007
Saturday, October 20, 2007
NeW LiFe UnL3aShiNg SooN
There's some changes
It might look tense now
But don't worry
I'm going to be alright
I think
It's time for me to take a rest
Yes
Unbelievable
But I'm going to take a break
To think about where should I go next
To think and plan my future
Go for it, Yanni!
You can do it !!
New life unleashing soon
Coming in November
Sunday, September 30, 2007
BuSy
We're always busy
Busy busy and busy only
I've started to worry
How How How
How to answer your question
How to make sure we're balance in everything
It's all just because
I care too much about us
I'm afraid of losing you
I'm worried
I'd fail again
Thursday, September 20, 2007
SweeT SeaSoN
It's not easy to find someone I like
It's even more difficult to find someone
Who likes each other
So I should not sabotage myself anymore
It's sweet
It's warm
It's peaceful
I like the feeling now
Sunday, September 02, 2007
StRuGgLiNg FoR New LiFe
I'm sorry
But I couldn't help to say so
I couldn't help to feel guilty
And I know it very well
The longer I'm staying
The more guilty I will feel
And the more I sink in it
I think it's time I pull myself out
Jia asked me not to bother so much
But I can't just go without proper trasition
That's not my style
I'm really struggling
For a better life
For things that I want to do in life
For my goals and dreams
With your words today
I really feel bad
But I don't know how to say it out
I've to overcome my guilt
I must do it
No matter what you say or do
Monday, August 20, 2007
On FeVeR
I'm very hot today
I was thinking how to simmer down
And surprisingly
I did it
It's a miracle
I think
It's time for me
I've to do something about it
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Qu3eN Of De YaNni
It's a kids party
Kekeke
The Queen's birthday is decorated with ballons
The Queen is given a crown
The Queen was feeling delighted when she saw the place
Thank you to all dears
I really had a memorable and fun night
Though it was full with dramas
But
It is my most meaningful birthday
Till I'm 24
It is dreamy
It is classy
It is the best in my life now
Kekeke
The Queen's birthday is decorated with ballons
The Queen is given a crown
The Queen was feeling delighted when she saw the place
Thank you to all dears
I really had a memorable and fun night
Though it was full with dramas
But
It is my most meaningful birthday
Till I'm 24
It is dreamy
It is classy
It is the best in my life now
Sunday, August 05, 2007
TuRniNg 24
Soon to be 24
But so far
I don't know what have I achieved
I don't have a direction in life
I still don't know what do I want
Sometimes
I don't even know
What am I to the earth?
This year
I've set so many goals
But none of it seems to be completed
Unrealistic Yanni
You've been unrealistic for quite some time already
It's time to wake up
This year
I'm left with another 4 months
What am I supposed to do?
Just do your best Yanni
But I feel
I'm under performance now
Am I setting to high expectation to myself?
Can someone tell me
Where am I heading to
Turning 24
But yet
I'm nothing
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
UnTiTLeD
Blogging was part of the important things in my daily life
But nowadays
I hardly blog
Due to incovenience
Due to whatever reasons
Hidden in me
Maybe I've been thinking too much
Or maybe it's just nothing
But when people sensed my negative feeling and mood
There must be a certain reason
Which I don't know what it is
It's very confusing
It's very contradicting
What do you see yourself in your career three years down from here?
I choose not to answer
Because I don't know how it will look like
And I'm not sure too
About things that happen next moment
Yes, you're right
No matter how uncertain the future is
We still need to plan
Even though the plan might not be carried out in the future
If I don't plan
I do not have a goal
To drive me to achieve it
I'll not have a future
Why do I being afraid to plan now?
I sense the fear deep inside me
Feeling insecure
Losing drive?
Losing confident?
What does success mean to me?
Am I an optimistic person?
Throwing so many questions to me
And how am I supposed to answer all in short?
Success?
I can't really find a definition to it now
To my mother
Success means I'm able to provide her a peaceful and happy life
To my job or career?
I don't know what've I achieved so far
Sense of achievement?
I'm wondering what's that all about
Am I chasing for anything now?
I don't even know what am I chasing for now
I still remember
During my LP second weekend
I still remember Scott's words
"If she's going to be the 2nd in self-sabotaging, nobody is going to be the first."
It seems so sarcastic now
Maybe
I need some reassurement
I need something to tell me
Am I contributing to them?
Focus on solutions
Focus on solutions, Yanni!!
I'm doing my very best towards it
As for now
I don't have confident to take over the position yet
Because I think
I'm still very far from what you expect me to be
And Yanni
What you expect youself to be is even higher
A voice from the inner Yanni
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Thank You Mr.D
In life
We meet good and bad people
At first
I thought we only learn from the good ones
But now
I change my perception
I realise that
We learn from anyone that passes by our life
Learning from other's mistakes
To be a reminder of my own
I think
That is the best person for me to learn with
It might sound funny
But it isn't
We've to be grateful
Always be grateful
To whom we meet in life
To whom walk in and out our life
To Mr.D
Thank you very much
For letting me be more certain that
I'll stay in the line
And continue to educate with love and care
Now
I realise
I love myself even more
Hahaha
Sunday, July 15, 2007
BuSy LiFe
I wonder when
When can I stop this busy life?
But anyway
I seem to be enjoying it very much
Except then the new face in office
Who gives me a lot of bullshit
Hahaha
Saturday, June 02, 2007
PriDeLeSs
What is pride?
What's the pride for?
What's my pride all about?
I don't know
And I don't understand
How much can the pride cost?
I feel sad
Even depress
Although I'd a talk with Jia
I still feel very bad
Tearing
I'm not sure if she saw it
But
I really feel tough
To stop it from dropping down
I've very high expectation
That's why I'm hurt
So badly now
Contradict
My interest towards it
Does not tally with what I want and get
I'm being Killed off
Don't know what do I want to do
Don't know where I want to go
When the commitment gets stronger
The more resentful I feel
I hate the me now
No confident No asset
No nothing
Friday, May 18, 2007
SicK
Sick Declaration
Aiksss
Can't fight with the virus
I'm still failed
It was a long time ago
Since my last MC
But then
I didn't take any MC yet
Flu flu
Please go away
I want to club tomorrow
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
In CraZy MoDe
I'm in crazy mode
My mind is full with crazy things
It makes no peace to me
Sometimes I think
I'm sick
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
RuNniNg WiLd
What happen?
I should not let my thoughts run wild
I should not live without work
So boring
Extremely boring
A workoholic like me
It's hopeless
I wish
I can lie on the beach now
Looking at the stars
So wonderful
Wake up wake up wake up
I should not let my thoughts runs wild
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Spe3ChLeSs
What shall I say?
How to say it?
I'm not sure
I'm really not sure
Being honest is not an easy job too
I'm in dilemma
Monday, April 09, 2007
In & OuT of ConTroL
Boss and manager will be away for 10days
Practically
It's going to be challenging period
For me
Yes
Me
How to be in control
How to be out of control
But in fact
I'm in control of everything
It's so profound
I wish everything will just be fine
Basically
I know my EQ is lousy
I'm suppose to learn
And I must learn it
If not
How am I suppose to improve myself
Bless me please
I know
It's a challenge to me
I must be confident
That nothing is gonna make me fall
Hey Yanni
You can do it
Go Go Go
Gambate neh
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Fr3aKiNg TiReD
I'm tired
Freaking tired
Wake up 6 something to 7 every morning
But I'm workin at 10a.m.
No choice
I'm carless now
And I
I miss my car DAMN much
The mechanic
Can you please return my car to me
As you promise on Saturday
Pray harder
I can't stand any longer
Going to collapse sooner or later
*Faint*
Saturday, March 17, 2007
CycLe 2
I wonder why
But the thing happened
Just as I expected
I don't know how
But as an outsider
I've a clearer view
Than anyone of you
So what about career
So what about future
So what about saving money
It'll be a never-ending story
From today onwards
Until 10 years 20 years
Or 30 years later
Please
I've had enough of all your bullshits
And all sorts of excuses
That's not going to work
Not only you have the burden
Not only you need to pick up the responsibility
Not only you who're suffering
Not only you have your own priority
Everyone has their own too
I despise people like this
Only know how to talk
Without any action
So what if you know that
I'm referring you
I'm serious here
I don't like you to torture my friend that way
Selfish fellow
If you know you're selfish
Please do something about it
To balance yourself
Not just putting it on your mouth
"I know"
Of cause "I know"
I know you're just trying to avoid again
Psssssh
And you GIRL
Don't need to be too rational
To even think of throwing your temper
To even think of the pros and cons
When you're angry or upset
Who is the one saying that you're irrational?
Ask him to come out
And jump from the 20th floor
I will ignore you
If the same thing happen
It's either you solve it
Or you continue to live it the way
It's all
Still up to you
I don't want to bother already
Thursday, March 15, 2007
MoViNg @gaiN
I've started my journey again
This time round
I'm not sure
Where'll I be going
Maybe god
Want me to lead my life this way
So
I've to find out why god do this to me
Or perharps
I've been looking forward to this kind of life
It's weird
But if anyone is going to ask me
"Where do you stay?"
Eventually
I'll answer steadily
I stay anywhere everywhere
Where I can live by
Sounds cool?
I believe you will not like it
The feeling without a HOME
Well
Since it's already that way
So
I'm prepared to continue my journey happily
Sunday, March 11, 2007
GoiNg To Be
Lately
My friend is having some relationship problems
Erm
I knew it since long ago
The problem still exists
But avoiding doesn't solve the issue
So now
The problem appears again
Well
To stop the cycle
You've got to face the problem up together
Face it handle it solve it
Whoever that continues to give excuses
He's the one who sour the whole relationship
If there's no honesty
If there's no sincerity
Nothing could be solved
Is it going to be your 5 years?
It's all up to you
Not anyone else
Since you're brave enough to be in it
Since you're brave enough to avoid it
Why don't you just be a little braver
To face the LOVE together
Is it going to be?
No matter how
I will still be here
Stand by you